T = 12:30 AM
T+0:00 - swallowed 6x0.25mg alprazolam = 1.5mg on an empty stomach, prepared about 2-3 shots vodka for later
T+0:30 - starting to feel the sedating effects i suppose... swalowed 1x0.25mg=1.75mg
T+1:00 - def feel something enjoyable. took 1x0.25mg=2.0mg sublingually, parachuted 1x0.25mg=2.25mg. the feeling is comparable to having about 3 shots hard liquor.
T+1:10 - drank about half of the previously prepared vodka
T+1:15 - couldnt resist, drank the rest of the vodka =) i feel very good right. i wouldn't call it euphoric, but it's enjoyable. zero stress. feeling of drunkness is def increasing. i wish i had someone to talk to... losing concentration a lot
T+11:30 - well clearly I fell asleep. I sent an odd facebook msg that i have no memory of sending, and I actually don't even remember typing that T+1:15 log. This could have been a more fun experience had I been with other people, but it ended up pretty boring.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Ambien
~T-5:00 - 10mg Celexa, 150mg Wellbutrin
T+0:00 - 10mg Ambien generic (IR)
Tmax of IR Ambien is 1.6 hours.
T+0:45 - I guess I'm starting to feel a bit weird. Nothing very interesting.
T+1:00 - I feel kinda out of it but still know whats going on. Can't be bothered to worry about anything. Whoa I just thought my chair was spinning but it wasn't.
T+1:15 - I feel pretty out of it but still know whats going on like before. Definite sense of euphoria. Not stressing about anything. Some motor impairment but nothin major. Really wanna do something, I wish friends were here. Also noticed no sedation effects, which seems weird but whatever. Just started noticing that inanimate things keep moving. I ran to catch the laptop that I thought was sliding off the bed only to see that it's perfectly still. I guess this is the point where visual hallucinations start.
T+1:30 - nearing the T-max point. still insisting that my matress is breathing etc. It's pretty hard to concentrate on something, especially typing but I think I'm doing ok.)I could swear that the people on the DVD case in front of me are moving. Ok we're moving on to much more profound hallucinations now. I swear that as I'm typing this, my desk is swinging to and away from me. Now it feels like I'm coming with the desk, like the whole room is swinging. I snap myself out of it and realize the room is still, but as soon as I sit to resume typing, the swinging continues. It's like the entire room tries to amplify every move I make around me. I still can't shake the feeling that all these inanimate objects are breathing and I can truly see it I think. Also I thought my whole chair was rising and i was worried I would hit the ceiling until I shook it off, but I still can feel the chair breathing under me. Creepy. I just have a general feeling of space being pulled and warped and tilted...everything is moving!
T+1:35 - standing up helped me come back to the real world a bit. Decided get another tablet and see what to do with it.
T+2:00 - 5mg Ambien IR insufflated, bringing total dosage to 15mg.
-I still feel pretty weird. the moving room seems to have stopped. altho words on the screen continue to move. It will be interesting to see what this second dose will do to me.
T+2:15 - starting to lose touch with reality... The movie I have been listening too keeps affecting me somehow. I keep dip into dreams by just closing my eyes. doing that while listening to the music is awesome. Things have stopped manking any kind of sense.
~T+11:00 - Well, I just woke up. I have no idea what happened last night. I sent a skype msg at about T+6:00, meaning I lost around 4 hours at least. Snorting that half of a pill is the last thing I remember.
T+0:00 - 10mg Ambien generic (IR)
Tmax of IR Ambien is 1.6 hours.
T+0:45 - I guess I'm starting to feel a bit weird. Nothing very interesting.
T+1:00 - I feel kinda out of it but still know whats going on. Can't be bothered to worry about anything. Whoa I just thought my chair was spinning but it wasn't.
T+1:15 - I feel pretty out of it but still know whats going on like before. Definite sense of euphoria. Not stressing about anything. Some motor impairment but nothin major. Really wanna do something, I wish friends were here. Also noticed no sedation effects, which seems weird but whatever. Just started noticing that inanimate things keep moving. I ran to catch the laptop that I thought was sliding off the bed only to see that it's perfectly still. I guess this is the point where visual hallucinations start.
T+1:30 - nearing the T-max point. still insisting that my matress is breathing etc. It's pretty hard to concentrate on something, especially typing but I think I'm doing ok.)I could swear that the people on the DVD case in front of me are moving. Ok we're moving on to much more profound hallucinations now. I swear that as I'm typing this, my desk is swinging to and away from me. Now it feels like I'm coming with the desk, like the whole room is swinging. I snap myself out of it and realize the room is still, but as soon as I sit to resume typing, the swinging continues. It's like the entire room tries to amplify every move I make around me. I still can't shake the feeling that all these inanimate objects are breathing and I can truly see it I think. Also I thought my whole chair was rising and i was worried I would hit the ceiling until I shook it off, but I still can feel the chair breathing under me. Creepy. I just have a general feeling of space being pulled and warped and tilted...everything is moving!
T+1:35 - standing up helped me come back to the real world a bit. Decided get another tablet and see what to do with it.
T+2:00 - 5mg Ambien IR insufflated, bringing total dosage to 15mg.
-I still feel pretty weird. the moving room seems to have stopped. altho words on the screen continue to move. It will be interesting to see what this second dose will do to me.
T+2:15 - starting to lose touch with reality... The movie I have been listening too keeps affecting me somehow. I keep dip into dreams by just closing my eyes. doing that while listening to the music is awesome. Things have stopped manking any kind of sense.
~T+11:00 - Well, I just woke up. I have no idea what happened last night. I sent a skype msg at about T+6:00, meaning I lost around 4 hours at least. Snorting that half of a pill is the last thing I remember.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Experience log: Focalin
May be worth mentioning that I take Wellbutrin (bupropion) XL 150mg daily, which does interact with Focalin because they both effect dopamine reuptake. This may have affected my experience. I took my last wellbutrin dose at about T-8:00
Focalin is an isomer of Ritalin, so they have very similar effects. Focalin is, however, more powerful than Ritalin, so a smaller dose produces similar effects.
T+0:00 - Took 3 10mg immediate-release tablets by mouth.
T+0:30 - I felt nothing so decided to go for another tablet via insufflation. It burned real bad, worse than anything I have ever snorted. Although I only have experience snorting various pharms, no illicit drugs.
T+0:45 - I feel a bit off. It's not really describable and may be placebo effect but I don't think so. I just feel kind of out of it I guess.
T+1:15 - feel pretty damn weird. definitely not placebo effect. It's like I'm having trouble keeping my mind straight.
T+1:30 - not exciting enough so I snorted another pill and took another, bringing me to 60 mg.
T+1:45 - bored... I was expecting a lot more intense of a feeling for 6 times the usual dose! pretty disappointed.
T+2:15 - feel almost completely normal.
Overall pretty disappointing. I guess it got kinda intense around T+1:15 or so but other than that it was pretty damn boring.
Focalin is an isomer of Ritalin, so they have very similar effects. Focalin is, however, more powerful than Ritalin, so a smaller dose produces similar effects.
T+0:00 - Took 3 10mg immediate-release tablets by mouth.
T+0:30 - I felt nothing so decided to go for another tablet via insufflation. It burned real bad, worse than anything I have ever snorted. Although I only have experience snorting various pharms, no illicit drugs.
T+0:45 - I feel a bit off. It's not really describable and may be placebo effect but I don't think so. I just feel kind of out of it I guess.
T+1:15 - feel pretty damn weird. definitely not placebo effect. It's like I'm having trouble keeping my mind straight.
T+1:30 - not exciting enough so I snorted another pill and took another, bringing me to 60 mg.
T+1:45 - bored... I was expecting a lot more intense of a feeling for 6 times the usual dose! pretty disappointed.
T+2:15 - feel almost completely normal.
Overall pretty disappointing. I guess it got kinda intense around T+1:15 or so but other than that it was pretty damn boring.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Experience log: Caffeine + Melatonin
recent meds that could affect experience:
1.5mg melatonin taken at T-17:00
12.5mg sertraline at T-10:00
150mg bupropion at T-10:00
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T+0:00 - took 6mg melatonin (2x3mg tablet) and 200mg caffeine (Rockstar shot) orally.
T+25:00 - definitely feeling a bit out of it. I feel like what I normally do after taking melatonin; a bit tired, zoned out. Not feeling the caffeine much or at all. Placebo effect may have something to do with this, as I feel pretty normal when I try, but I think I am pretty zoned out. I just spent a full minute trying to remember the word "placebo".
T+00:35 - pretty damn zoned out... finding it hard to concentrate on anything at all. I actually feel kinda hyper now; I wanna get up and do somethin, despite the disassociation. It's kind of an unpleasant, anxious feeling. Also getting very short dizzy spells every 30 seconds or so.
T+1:00 - damn tired.
T+2:30 - just woke up lol... the melatonin was too tiring. effects seem to have ended mostly. overall not a bad experience, but not pleasant either. wouldn't do it again.
1.5mg melatonin taken at T-17:00
12.5mg sertraline at T-10:00
150mg bupropion at T-10:00
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T+0:00 - took 6mg melatonin (2x3mg tablet) and 200mg caffeine (Rockstar shot) orally.
T+25:00 - definitely feeling a bit out of it. I feel like what I normally do after taking melatonin; a bit tired, zoned out. Not feeling the caffeine much or at all. Placebo effect may have something to do with this, as I feel pretty normal when I try, but I think I am pretty zoned out. I just spent a full minute trying to remember the word "placebo".
T+00:35 - pretty damn zoned out... finding it hard to concentrate on anything at all. I actually feel kinda hyper now; I wanna get up and do somethin, despite the disassociation. It's kind of an unpleasant, anxious feeling. Also getting very short dizzy spells every 30 seconds or so.
T+1:00 - damn tired.
T+2:30 - just woke up lol... the melatonin was too tiring. effects seem to have ended mostly. overall not a bad experience, but not pleasant either. wouldn't do it again.
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